Merrill Squared: A Lesson Learned

So I learned a great lesson yesterday... on our BIG one year anniversary. And no this is not going to be mushy- I think J covered the whole mushy blog quota thing! JK I really appreciated the sweet post. Actually that's kind of where I learned my lesson. I woke up... It was Wednesday... I had to work...Jason had to work until 7:00... and it was our 1 year anniversary. I guess I had expectations of anniversaries (being that I had never had one before) and I expected the first one to be especially important and celebrated in a big way. We had already discussed not getting each other gifts (and I am a gift person- I love giving them, I love getting them) and that we would not be able to do anything too expensive to celebrate. Even though I had tried to prepare myself for a less than spectacular celebration, I was still feeling sorry for myself when I went to work. And as self pity always does it built-up...FAST. And I broke down and cried, tried to play it off as allergies to my co-workers (who are women, and knew that my anniversary was coming up so of course they didn't buy it). And then I got a text from my J saying he didn't have time to clean up the house because he had spent too much on our blog... so I immediately went to our blog because he usually spends no time on there. As I was reading his post I started crying again- but not out of self-pity and maybe out of a little embarassment, a lot of gratitude, and a lot of love. I felt like someone had hit me in the head when I was reading it, as if to say "DUH Nicole!" Then I remembered why I married this man, because he will always be there to remind me what is important in life.

It ended up being a really nice night. We ordered in, watched our favorite show LOST (it was the season finale so it was 2 hours- can there be anything better than 2 hours of LOST?) After LOST was over, Jason turned on the DVD player. I was pretty confused and excited at the thought that maybe, just maybe, he had our wedding video in the dvd player. We haven't seen it yet because we have an awesome friend who offered to do it for us for free 99(who can resist that deal?). And lo and behold it was our wedding video! I started bawling again (yes, by this time my eyes are burning). I was so excited to see it and sort of relive the feelings of that day. It was such a wonderful day and one of the most spiritual experiences thus far in my life. Once again, I was reminded of what was important, not getting expensive gifts or going somewhere fancy for dinner, but that we were together, in our pajamas, watching our favorite show, and just being together. For some reason my husband has learned this lesson, while it will probably take me 16 more times to get it through my head. So, I just wanted to thank J for helping me to realize the important things in life, the small things, small moments, a kiss, a smile, a laugh. (OK so it got a tiny bit mushy).

After we watched our video (twice) we had some fun with our wedding cake.

This was our wedding cake 1 year ago...