One Hundred and Ten Percent

I love ultra sound day! It just makes me happy to see my little babe moving around, still a little surreal that he's moving around inside of me. I don't know if I'll be able to grasp that fact until he actually comes out of me. He was moving A LOT today.
 That's right I said he... I'm now 110% sure. I'm always amazed as I stare at the ultrasound screen that my body is capable of housing and growing another body! It's beyond my earthly comprehension that we were designed so perfectly, for the most part. It has really made me realize how precious and sacred the ability of bringing another life into the world is. And then you totally understand why as a teenager you are always preached to over and over again about remaining moral. Not that I really struggled with this, I mean I've even only kissed like 5 people in my life, but I never understood what a big deal it was until I got married and now I'm understanding it even more through this pregnancy. When I really stop to think about what's happening inside of me and how our lives are about to change drastically, I feel more grateful and more blessed than I ever have before. I told Jason the other night that even though I might have days where I don't feel well or I'm stressed over something, mostly I am just happy. I finally feel like my life is going to have a bigger purpose than just worrying about myself or going to work. And I feel like I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing. Which everyone knows when your thoughts are in line with your actions, the result is peace. And I've thought for just about forever that all I really want to do is be a little mommy. It is quite an honor to be trusted with such a responsibility and blessing. I can't imagine how grateful and blessed I will feel the day that Harper makes his first appearance. Can't wait!

On a completely unrelated and much less emotional note... Every time I throw a wrapper in my garbage can at work, I remember an Oprah that I watched a few months ago. They were trying to find out what was "normal" and one of the survey questions was: Do you hide your trash? Like when you put something in the trash do you conceal or hide it so other people can't see what you've been eating. I hope it's normal because I always do that! And now when I throw any kind of wrapper away in the trash at work I have this anxiety that our cleaning lady will think I'm a fat cow or something because in a weeks time there are probably a few or more than a few candy wrappers (most recently added about 10 minutes ago was a Reeses wrapper), a few drink cups, and who knows what else.

Good thing I have a wedding picture on my desk so if she ever thinks "Whoever works at this desk must weigh 500 pounds by now!" She will know I don't... only a few more pounds than in that picture! Seriously how insane am I to think that whoever dumps my trash is going to sift through it to see what I've been eating. I need to get a grip!

But I bet I'm not the only one who has ever had a thought like that. Am I?!?!?!?!?!